Author’s Note: Seamus and Peony have actually had a chance to spend some time together this week, interrupting our usual theme. If we had any readers, we’d ask their indulgence as we fill in the gap with a few ruminations on bartimes past.
For whatever reason I never got around to asking the businessman how somebody like him came to be in that bar at all. It stood on a drear but colorful stretch of East Colfax, which Playboy magazine had long ago famously called the longest and wickedest street in America, and when I met the man it was two in the afternoon. It was perfectly clear why I was there, but he was a whole different animal. Well dressed, for one thing, clothes that cost money, shirt tucked in, proper business attire. And he was a big, handsome guy, athletic, broad shouldered, conservative haircut – everything that little corner of paradise didn’t usually see in a patron. And, of course, by the time I met him he was a few sheets to the wind and sailing well.
The crowd was thin as befit the time of day. The bartender was a young woman, maybe in her mid-twenties, very beautiful and very hard. She was tall and athletic and she did not smile and she did her business with brusque efficiency and she was, I suspect, well tipped in spite of that. Other than myself and the businessman the only other trade were a few oldsters, but to a man they gazed at her as she worked, peering out from somewhere within their own distant and receding dreams.
After a while the businessman, who was seated on my right and to whom I hadn’t really been talking, nudged me and said in a stage whisper, “you see that girl?” There was no other girl to see, so I nodded. He nodded too. “She’s beautiful!” I allowed that she was. “I’m going to talk to her.”
“Well,” I said, “she is the bartender, so I guess you can.”
“Yeah! I am.” A few minutes passed. The businessman’s beer was empty and eventually she swung by and asked if he wanted another. He said yes, and began to lean forward, chin raised, preparing something else to say. She was gone though, having whisked away his empty glass. She dropped a fresh beer by and once more a kind of tremor went through him but again, too quickly, she was gone. He stared into the middle distance a moment, then he nodded to himself. “Going to talk to her. She’s busy is all.”
Getting fed, up, I hitched around toward him on my stool. “Look, partner, she’s not that busy. There’s three old men in here all of whom’ll likely be dead inside the hour. Now I’m not trying to tell you one way or another what you should do here. But just keep in mind, I mean, let’s say you talk to her, and let’s say she’s nice to you. Now you know, even if she did that, and I’m not saying she’s going to, but even if she did, that’s kind of her job. I mean tips and all that, you know? You’re gonna have to make a determination, even if that happens, whether it’s got anything to do with you in the first place. You understand that and everything, right?”
The businessman looked a little indignant. “Yes but, I mean, that’s not her fault! You know? You can’t, I mean you can’t blame her for that, you know?”
I hitched back around in my seat. It was clear that his mind had already far outrun East Colfax. In his world, parallel to but very distant from this one, they were already picking out drapes, and the drapes were beautiful and he could afford them easily, and nobody would ever set fire to them ever. There’s no point trying to pluck a guy back from a place like that.
After some time she came back along the bar with a rag, cleaning quickly around us like were a couple of pieces of furniture. The businessman looked at his hands.
The funny thing about it is they would have made a handsome couple. It’s funny how things just don’t work out.
***
The fellow sat next to me on my left and we’d been chatting away a good part of the afternoon. He was some kind of aging 1980s hipster gone to seed, long hair receding quite a bit and heading for gray. He had glasses on and looked a little like Warren Zevon probably looked right towards the end. He was smoking GPCs and wore a black western shirt that was too short for his lanky arms. He had the cuffs unbuttoned and a couple of old rings on. He was also, of course, pretty drunk, but you got the idea that he’d been drunk since morning and likely drunk the day before, so while it was definitely a kind of problem for him it didn’t make him a problem to hang out with, and he was a nice guy and we were trading stories.
As it happened I had a little work going in a couple of bands and I mentioned that – nothing great but I was getting out and making a couple bucks here and there. The man kind of sat up and got a little bit alert. “Hey, man, you know what? That’s great! See I’m a sax player myself.”
“No kidding.”
“Yeah! Oh yeah. Hey, y’all should let me come sit in sometime.”
“Sure,” I said, not meaning it at all, “though we’re playing mostly up in Boulder nowadays. Better pay, you know.”
“Ah yeah, that’s a bummer. No car, you know. Bummer.” He was thoughtful for a minute. “And actually I pawned my horn. I mean you know how it is.”
“That’s too bad.”
“Yeah. Say, you don’t have a horn player, do you? I mean, well wait…” He gave it some thought. “Nah, I guess that wouldn’t work anyway. See what I was gonna say is, if you had a horn player, I could maybe borrow his horn, but then I thought, if you already had one – that is to say a horn player – you probably wouldn’t need me anyway, so…”
I nodded sympathetically. “Then there’s reeds,” I said. “You gotta have your own reeds. Gross otherwise.”
He nodded. “I’d want my whole own mouthpiece. And I guess at that point…hey!” He was staring at my wrist. I had a fancy watch on – nothing expensive but it was a square face with silver roman numerals and all. “Man, that’s a really nice watch.” I thanked him, and told him it wasn’t anything too special but I liked it.
“Yeah,” he said, squinting off into the distance, “I never quite had the balls to wear a watch like that.” He took a thoughtful drag on his cigarette. “Which is a shame, you think about it. Might have made the difference in my musical career.” I squinted off with him into the same distance, and we nodded together.
***
It was late and it was loud. I had my hair in a greasy pompadour and was in the bar with Chuck and Jefe and we’d been drinking pretty good and there was a rockabilly band playing. No chance of a seat at the bar, and the boys and I had gotten separated. The band was on the opposite side of the room on the makeshift stage that seemed always to have been cobbled together in a different place every time they had a show there. I was standing behind an old man who had a seat and I suspected he’d probably taken it that afternoon and just never gotten up. Certainly he stood out from the by-now much younger crowd. I had to lean in on him a little bit to get a beer and he tapped my arm. I leaned in further so he could speak into my ear.
“I’m young again!”
“Come again, sir?”
He leaned in on me. “I’m feeling young again! You fellas look like I looked. This is my kind of music. I’m pretending,” he said, “that it’s 1954!”
I looked at him, and he was grinning widely. I had to grin too, and slapped his shoulder. “Well daddio, I guess it is.”
Now as all this was happening I’d become aware that Chuck had been making his way methodically down the other end of the bar, going from person to person and engaging each. Most had laughed, or shaken their heads, but as the old man and I talked a big guy stood up abruptly in Chuck’s face and a couple of glasses went over on the bar. Before I could do much about it, somebody grabbed me the shoulder and shoved me hard toward the door. I wheeled around and saw my friend Jefe – a big guy in own right and now moving with a lot of momentum. He had a look on his face that said “don’t ask, just go.” I turned back around and we both grabbed Chuck, who was grinning glassily up into the face of a much bigger man who in turn was not grinning at all. Barreling through the crowd we made the last ten feet to the door and burst out onto the sidewalk just as a sort of roar began to go up from the back of the bar. Outside, we did some kind of three stooges grab-ass shuffle, not knowing which way to go, and then by some consensus took off westbound down Colfax, turning on Race street and then down an alley until we felt reasonably certain that nobody had given chase.
Catching our breath in the alley, I asked my friends to kindly explain what the fuck. As far I could reconstruct, what had taken place was essentially this: Chuck, to begin with, having become separated from the group and bored by the band, had decided that a fight was in order. Having no real target for his ire, however, and not necessarily just wanting to attack somebody for no good reason, he had hatched a cunning plan to go down the bar from one end to the other and ask each man he met whether or not he was a faggot. He got no takers, however, until the big guy, which even Chuck was prepared to admit wasn’t quite the outcome he had hoped for.
Meanwhile Jefe, having had quite a bit to drink early on, had staggered into the men’s room with no more sinister purpose than to relieve himself. Being a bit the worse for drink, however, and wearing very tight trousers, he had fouled his penis in the zipper and, enraged, kicked the toilet. Now being as I mentioned a rather big man, and wearing as he was a pair of steel-toed boots, this kick was perhaps a bit more effective than he’d anticipated. The side of the toilet shattered, and pee water gushed out in a torrent and began rapidly streaming out of the bathroom and spreading across the barroom floor. Deciding that getting the fuck out of Dodge was the better part of valor, he’d come bursting out and grabbed us both, doing Chuck a pretty considerable favor in the process.
The funny thing is, years later I got to be friends with the guy who owned that bar – a skilled contractor who did a lot of work on a house I later owned. I always wanted to ask him about the night some jackass kicked his toilet in, and Jefe’s been dead these nineteen years so I guess it wouldn’t have been any harm. I never did though.