There’s something about one’s home airport that’s hard to explain. At least if you travel enough, there’s a kind of comfort that comes to be associated with the airport you know best. Airports at their best aren’t generally pleasant spaces, and by most lights DIA in particular is sort of an abomination; vast, strange, awkwardly placed miles from the city, hard to get around quickly. Still, for me, it feels like my living room. I know where everything is. I know which bathrooms are likely to be clean and not crowded, where you can get coffee at 3am, how long I need to get to whatever concourse I need to reach. I have, if I’m honest, a weird affection for it.
There’s no stress, is the thing. I may or may not be happy about where I’m going (and since I travel for work, I rarely am) but the airport itself is a place where I can almost decompress before I have to fly; something I appreciate. This is made more true by the knowledge that when I get where I’m going, the contrast will always be stark. I don’t really know my way, for example, around the airport in Atlanta. I’ll figure it out, but this will take effort. I’ll have to have my head up, pay attention to the signage and concentrate. I don’t like having to do that. It makes me feel like a rube, even though I realize that it’s just part and parcel of the whole experience. At DIA, by contrast, I don’t have to look at anything. I put on headphones the moment I arrive and tune out everything happening around me. It’s peaceful.
It’s a little after four in the morning on a Thursday, and I’m off for a quick but demanding, one-day trip to see a couple of clients. At least one of those is an impossible situation: I’ve been dispatched to try and navigate a technical integration that I already know is basically impossible. I mean, it’s software, so almost nothing is absolutely impossible, but it will be expensive and cumbersome to such a degree that I simply can’t see it actually happening. The sales guy in charge of the account is unable, for reasons of financial fantasy, to accept this, and stares off dreamily into space every time I bring it up. If that meeting were the only reason for the trip, I wouldn’t have gone, but since I had to travel this week anyway I reluctantly agreed to go preside over what I already know will be an embarrassing cluster. But, in its way, that’s alright. There’s a skill set involved in handling that kind of crap and I need to keep it sharp. Cynicism all around, but off I go.
My only really substantive complaint is that I’m struggling a bit to type, having lost most of the use of my right forefinger last night. This is because I was obliged to attend a corporate happy hour, where I was obliged to bowl. Now I hate bowling and don’t do it well at all, so somewhere in my awkward striving I managed to fairly seriously strain a tendon in my finger which, because of this, doesn’t really work anymore.
The corporate happy hour is an idiotic construct that needs to be stopped. The logic behind it, in essence, is this: in the working world, the only meaningful reward that anyone can imagine for one’s labor is the freedom to drink. If one is successful and works hard, one gets to drink in many different places, and if one really achieves success, once a year or so you can go to a beach and drink for an entire week. When it’s time for a team to be “rewarded”, the company in question ponies up a few dollars and buys said team some drinks at a bar. The team gets alcohol that they don’t have to pay for, and gets to spend a couple extra hours with people they’ve already been forced to spend an entire day with.
This is idiotic on several layers. First, most of the team is drinking quite a bit anyway, simply as a means of numbing the pain of their thoroughly unrealized lives. So adding a few bucks worth of free booze to the pile isn’t really improving anyone’s life. Second, at the point that I’ve got to go to one of these things, I’ve already spent a full day interacting with a group of people with whom, left to my own devices, I probably wouldn’t really spend any time at all. I long ago gave up on the whole “team building” aspect of the ritual as well. All this means is that with enough lubrication, most people will eventually do or say something regrettable, likely involving the disclosure of improper personal information. In this way, we say that we now “know” our teammates better than we did, and try to convince ourselves that this somehow makes the group more effective as a whole. It doesn’t, however. It just means that we’ll all be slightly more uncomfortable with one another, sober, than we already were.
But, if corporate America is good at anything, it’s the unquestioned upholding and mindless repetition of pointless rituals, destructive habits and threadbare tropes. Thus, in the name of team cohesion, I have to go twist my finger halfway off, drinking beer I don’t like in a bar I don’t care for, while practicing a sport that I despise. Landing me here, now, typing up my reactions with nine fingers. But at least, at the ass-end of Concourse C, I’m at home.